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What book have you read that you would recommend other people skip entirely?

Adventures of Huckleberry Finn.  Oh, how I hate that book!   I suppose I prolly shouldn't tell people to not read it though being it's a classic.

I've been tagged by Kristie for a book meme!

The Almost Moon: A Novel

Alice Sebold

The rules:
Pick up the nearest book (of at least 123 pages).
Open the book to page 123.
Find the fifth sentence.
Post the next three sentences.
Tag five people.

The book: The Almost Moon by Alice Sebold
    "'... Painters, photographers, writers.  There is something very muselike about your mother.'
    I sat at the shiny wooden table and looked at page after page of nude women."

I tag: whoever wants to do it again? I think everyone I'm friends with on here have already been tagged once...

Yesterday was International Delete Your MySpace Account Day. Did you participate?

Hmmm....I can't say that I knew yesterday was International Delete Your MySpace Account Day; but oddly enough, I did delete my MySpace account yesterday....

What's the one thing you're going to do different this year to make your life easier, better, and more fun than it was last year? 
Submitted by roboter.

I'm going to start doing things for ME!  I'm done trying to please others all the time.

So I'm kind of a calm angry right now.  My sis just called me awhile ago and said:  "I don't want to get in the middle of this (the whole thing between my parents and me dealing with Derrick), but you might want to change your password.  But please, please, please don't say anything to mom."

So I guess when I was home over the weekend, my email password got saved to the computer and she's been snooping through all the emails between Derrick and I.  I was a little bit angry.  I'm not even really angry at the fact that she's snooping through my personal emails.  It's more that while I was home she acted like she was perfectly fine with the whole situation.  She was smiling and acted like it didn't bother her anymore; but obviously it does.  I just wish she would confront me about it instead of going through my shit.  I've made it very clear that I'm willing to answer any questions she has or explain things to her more, but no.  She would rather resort to spying. 

I have no clue how to resolve this situation...

So I had my first day of classes today.  Thankfully it went alright being I changed my schedule around yesterday!  I decided I wasn't sure if I could see myself teaching math in the future, so I'm postponing that for the time being.  I had to drop Calculus and add some other stuff.  Today I had Intro to Teaching, which is just going to be an okay class, nothing too spectacular.  Then I had Later World Lit, which I think is going to be pretty cool.  To name a few things we'll be reading (or at least reading part of): K'ung Shang-Jen's Peach Blossom Fan, Voltaire's Candide, Gustave Flaubert's Madame Bovary, Marjane Satrapi's Persepolis, Gabriel Garcia-Marquez's Death Constant Beyond Love, Tolstoy's Ivan Ilych, and Fyodor Dostoyevsky's Notes from Underground.  There's some other short poems and such that'll we'll be reading, but that'll give ya a good idea of the class.  I also had Basic Econ today, which will be boring.  The professor seems really nice though, so I was happy about that.  My last class of the day was Geography.  I was scared to death about that class because I was suppose to have the toughest teacher ever for it, but it turns out that she's on sabbatical so I have this nice, younger guy as a professor.  He has lots of fun stories being he's been to all 7 continents and almost 30 different countries! Plus, we're watching lots of movies in the class like Sicko, Gandhi, and Hotel Rwanda. So the semester isn't shaping up to be too bad thus far. I'll have Developmental Psychology tomorrow, and I think that class will be really interesting.  Then starting on March 11, I'll have Lifetime Fitness (stupid gen ed).  It shouldn't be too bad though.  I'm really liking my schedule so far though. 

Monday/Wednesday: class from 10-12 and 1-3:20
Tuesday/Thursday: class from 9:30-11 and then when March 11 rolls around from 8-9
Friday: class from 11-12 and 1-2

My parents and sis aren't impressed at all with my decision to drop Calc.  I guess maybe it's just because they weren't overly impressed with me to begin with because of Derrick coming to visit.  They just keep telling me I'll never be able to find a job as an English teacher so I need to have the Math too.  I guess I understand their fears because Math is definitely in more demand than English; but I just don't know if I would even enjoy teaching math.  I enjoy doing math myself, but once I sat down and thought about it, I couldn't really picture myself teaching math for the rest of my life.  Plus, it's not like it's now or never.  I can also pick it up again next semester.  I just wish they'd be a little bit more supportive of my decisions as of late.  

So it's been awhile since I've updated this thing, and I must admit that it has been quite an interesting month thus far.  My boyfriend of over 2 years and I are over with (for good this time).  It is sad, but I think it's for the best.  If I stay with him, I know exactly where I'll end up and it's a place where I don't really want to end up.  He says that I'm being selfish and shallow and maybe I am, but I'm finally doing things for myself, not for others.  This huge event that I did for myself was allow a guy I've known for 6 years come to see me.  We met very randomly through the internet.  I had to make some web page for school, and one of his friends randomly saw it and randomly emailed me.  Then I started talking to Derrick through that friend.  We've known each other for so long and recently there has very blatantly been a switch from friendship to something more than friendship; so he spent 10 days with me.  My parents knew nothing about this guy, and they definitely aren't the type of people who approve of internet relationships, so it was kind of a huge risk for me.  I've heard all the internet horror stories, but truthfully, I wasn't at all scared to meet him.  Once he got here, it seemed like we'd been spending time together our entire lives.  But anyways, there was lots of drama with Allen (my ex) and I ended up telling my parents.  They didn't freak clear out like I thought they would, but they are coming here tomorrow so I'm assuming we'll be talking about it some more.  The visit went well though, so they're going to have to accept the fact that it WILL be happening again.  I guess I do feel a little bit like a bad person for ending one relationship and jumping into another, but I've been letting myself see the truth finally. I was never completely happy with Allen, and I've always had feelings for Derrick.  We just kind of click, ya know?  It's hard to explain, but if you love someone ya know what I mean.  But anywho...we're trying to plan another trip for in March.  Hopefully he'll be coming out here for a little while and my parents will want to meet him. (We offered multiple times to drive to my hometown for them to meet him, but they said no.)  After they meet him, we're hoping they'll be ok with my flying to Ohio to meet his parents and friends over my Spring Break.  I'm actually really starting to become happy, and I feel like I'm finally doing things for myself.  That prolly sounds selfish, but very rarely do I do something because I truly want to do it.  I'm sure all of this sounds a little crazy and possibly extreme, but to Derrick and I it just seems right.  And if we're both happy together, isn't that all that matters?

ahem. and yes I do realize how random the subject line is.  I couldn't really think of anything to put there, so that is just an example of the extreme randomness and loss that occurs when Derrick and I are together.  Random statements like with cheese and long strawberry. :)

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